I actually thought about that. It was my deepest, darkest, most seriously selfish concern!
Not: I have no idea how to calm a crying baby. Hell, I haven't held one..ever!
Not: I have no idea how to change a diaper. Eww! and barf? Omg. I'll barf!
Not: My body is going to be ripped to shreds. Will I ever be able to put it back together? (no.)
What kept me awake at night was, ironically,.. that I would miss the zzz's. I couldn't bear the thought of it.
20 months in..
Late at night, when the house has been quiet for a few hours and the toys are picked up and the peanut butter & jelly has been wiped from the walls, I can hardly bear the thought of waiting until 6 a.m. to see her, again.
I can't bear the thought of her becoming a teenager and missing her until 11 a.m. instead of just 6 or 7 a.m.
..or the thought of her growing out of fleece footed pajamas and never being able to wash and dry another set.
..or the night she decides that she's tired of reading 2,500 books with us and abandons our preciously long nightly routine forever.
Until then..
Those sweet babies sure have a way of shifting our priorities, huh?!
ReplyDeleteMelted my heart, so sweet! I know the feeling too. I can't help but go "check" on Emma before I go to bed. Honestly I just need one last look at her before I can rest easy.
ReplyDeleteSoak up those precious moments, they grow up so fast. My two are 8 and 13 and I still check on them before I go to bed, I just can't help it. :)
ReplyDeleteIt's funny how that works isn't it? There are days that I wish and wish that I had some where to send him for just a couple of hours and then when he is gone for a day or overnight I don't know what to do with myself and I miss him like crazy.
ReplyDeletei've uttered those exact. same. words. ..."but you don't understand, i MUST have 8 hours of sleep" (well, i still do!)... and after a long day... i do the happy dance all the way down the stairs when i lay her in bed. then about 30 minutes later, i miss her. and wanna go wake her up to play... then i start the vicious cycle of "what are you going to do when she doesn't come home until 11pm" and "what are you going to do when she doesn't want to hang out with you anymore" :-/
ReplyDeleteGREAT POST! it is funny how much you miss them when they're right down the hall asleep.
Y'all! So glad I'm not the only one.. and it looks like we're all appreciating what we have :)
ReplyDeleteso sweet... I go in the boys' rooms numerous times a night to check on them and we have to read literally 10 books between the two boys.. but I would not have it any other way.. I keep telling myself.. One of these days they aren't going to want me to tuck them in bed anymore and do night night.. sleep tight... don't let the bed bugs bite... (then I tickle them to pieces..) It really breaks my heart to think of them growing up.. I can't stand it....
ReplyDeleteMade me tear up. So true.
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